I dreamt that Graham and I were together at an SCA event, although neither of us had changed into garb yet. We went into a locker room together, which was adjacent to the hall, and sat down on one of the benches. A stunningly gorgeous Japanese woman came in, and Graham introduced her to me. He had known her back when she used to live in Canada, they had met in the SCA, and become very good platonic friends. He had taken her as his platonic, SCA wife before she had to move back to Japan. Now she was back after many years away on a brief visit. I flipped. One moment I was fine, as soon as he was done his story, I started screaming at him, calling him a hypocrite. Here he is, going on about how seriously he takes fealty, and yet he’s been concealing a fake wife from me! As Graham put it, when I told him about the dream, “I had a complete jealous hissy fit.” I woke up to my alarm, still arguing with him.
I’ve dreamt about Graham a few times now, (this is the second time I’ve dreamed that he either had gotten or was married) and I think for me he represents the Stranger/messenger/angel that Yahcob wrestles with to become Yisrael.
I have always seen him as a guide, and though not actually a rabbi or preist in waking life, he is someone I look to as being further on the path, or perhaps merely better settled with it.
Each dream, Graham seems to represent an Aspect that I’m struggling with, something I’m trying to come to terms with or wrap myself around. I know at my core that whichever message he’s representing, that it is Truth, but knowing Truth, accepting that Truth, and learning to walk it and live with it, are different states. Ultimately it is me struggling with myself to accept the truth of that Truth.
In this case, Graham represents some deep-seated hypocrisy I sense in myself. That I have to be commented to this process of returning, and take is seriously. I have to stop using being a sceptic as an excuse. Graham is not the one that is contradicting his religious ideals – I am, or I have been. I have to let myself be present in these discoveries.